Tuesday, December 31, 2002


Well tomorrow is the day, I've spent a majority of this day running around the house finding all the things that I have stashed in random places since I've been home and now am pretty sure that I'm packed. I'm not sure whether it's fortunate or not, but my mom is going to be taking me out to breakfast tomorrow before I leave and then I'm hitting the road hopefully by or before 11AM. I'm destined for Davis by 4 if at all possible. Looking at the weather forcast I think that I picked a good day to leave. It looks like it's just going to continue to get nastier as the week progresses. In all seriousness I should probably be leaving today but it's New Year's eve and I can't miss that!!! I unfortunately had to miss out on going puddle jumping with Sammot and a bunch of people today because of this packing bit, but apparently it was a success, a bunch of people showed up that half weren't even expected. What is puddle jumping you might ask? Well not to sound smart ass or anything (if you know me at you know I'm lying now...) but puddle jumping is going and jumping in puddles. Sounds like fun doesn't it?

On another note, I finally finished the Harry Potter series. It's completed at last, then I was looking on my computer. I happened to glance into the recycle bin and was going to toss some stuff until I saw some old supposed e-books of Harry Potter that I had never got to work. They now had an icon next to them and the extension on them was familiar now. ".PDB" "Why," I says to myself, "That is a database for a palm PDA." Upon which realization I transferred them to my palm and was pleasantly disgruntled to see they worked. Pleasant because I had my own copies now, disgruntled because I had just finished reading them... Oh well.

I don't think that I've talked about this on here but normally on New Year's Eve we have a party with the same group of friends and we all get together and that's fun. This year however, about 3/4 of these friends were invited to another party and are going to be going there. I was invited to this party as well and told that I could bring along whomever I wanted. That was all find and dandy we were going to merge the two parties is was going to be great. Then I get a call yesterday saying, "you weren't going to bring Ashley were you?" I had planned on it, but the host told me in so many words that she wasn't welcome. So now all the people that she normally has New Year's Eve with are invited to and probably going to this other party and she can't. That makes for a really sucky situation. I've gone over in my head how to remedy the situation but there really isn't anything that I can think of that would make it all work out. So yeah, that's all I have to say about that...

THIS IS MY 21st ENTRY (I think) and that means that I actually have a history now on my Livejournal. That's amazing!! Well Happy New year to you all!!!!!

Sunday, December 29, 2002

Lazy Day

I slept in this morning, because I really felt like it. I had been considering going to Church but changed my mind because it felt so good in bed. I then sat and down and proceeded to read Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I'm really flying through the books now that I have time to sit down and read. I finished the third book in a day and I'm already 250 pages through the fourth book. Ahhhhh...I love being able relax and do what I want. I still have pressing business that I should attend to but I'm not going to I'm going to revel in these relaxing days whilst I still can. Amazing how quickly they are going. I only have about 3 more days til I'm going to be leaving back down south. WOW!!!! That's really quickly.
Ok so New Year's is approaching and Will broached to me the question of New Year's resolutions. I ahdn't even thought about it. So I've decided that I'll write down what I think I want to get accomplished in the next year I'm not sure if they are really resolutions but oh well. So here goes:

I'm going to make sure that I learn Japanese continually. Or at least to keep studying diligently.
I'm going to hopefully use my new Sony Clie to keep myself in line and get things done like I'm supposed to instead of wasting time.
I want to try and read more often besides just text books.
I'm going to try and cut down on the club activities that I'm a part of and work more on my own interests outside of those clubs (yeah, like this is going to happen...)

That's a fairly ambitious list for me. On another note I was talking with Jason Reno and found out about some construction that's going to be going on in this area that is going to take like 6 months to complete and is going to back up traffic for miles. This construction is going to start 4 days after I leave and end like 5 days before I'm going to be coming back home. What good timing I have!!! :)

It's been raining like the entire time that I've been up here and I found out yesterday that there was over 2 feet of new snow on Mt. Ashland in one night. I really wanted to go snowboarding but it doesn't look like that is going to happen unless Will changes his mind and does it tomorrow. That would be something if that happens but I doubt it. OH!! I got two new Japanese books, I'm stoked they look like they are going to be pretty useful, especially paired with all the books that I already have and the awesome help that I get from the Asai Family.
Well that's all for now, toodaloo!

Friday, December 27, 2002


Well tonight I finally talked. There is just one last thing to do. It's a good thing that I'm not the only that sees things my way.

On another note, I tried to call Pam a couple of times and didn't get any response. I wonder where she is??? I even went so far as to call the actual house @ 10:30 and was quite worried that I was going to get a groggy male voice (her dad) on the other end. So after the 5th ring I gave up.

I went hung out with Jason Reno and Sammot today. That was fun, though Jason Reno and I both got PDA's for christmas so we were comparing and talking about that way more than we should of been and poor Sammot had to sit there and listen, but I tell you it was really good to see her. I haven't really been able to spend much time with her in a long time. I think really since last new year's. I'm definitely going to have to go and hang out with her again before I go.

I also had Jason Reno come play DDR with me. That was fun, it was over at the bowling alley because that is a nice machine, but it was cold today. So when I started DDRing without having warmed up, my legs cramped. Not fun.
Well look who finally called. Hehehe :) I'm horrible.

Thursday, December 26, 2002

I'm on a roll...

So this morning was the first morning that I actually, truly slept in since like finals week sometime. It felt really good. Especially since I didn't wake up with a really sore throat, instead I woke up with a cough that hasn't gone away. I know that means that I'm over the cold but in order to get rid of the cough I have to take a puff or two on my inhaler, which I left in SLO cuz I didn't think that I would be needing it...go figure. So it looks like I'm going to be putting up with this cold for awhile. Oh well C'est La Vie.

I was able to go and hang out with my old friend Jessica Brown today for a little while. She happened to be at the mall when I was there and so I got to see her and her friend Liz, whom I knew but had never really met.

The other thing that I did today was run into Jenny and Kelley, from the first Kelley was her typical self, but congrats to me on the fact that it doesn't bother me. More and more, I'm happy to realize my freedom from her.

On another note, I got a really cool carrying case for my number one christmas present. I can attach it to my belt and have it with me always. (Kind of reminds me of a Jewel song "I want to be near you alwaaaaaaayssss...") So I've been around flaunting that. I also got a call from Sammot today, so we'll be hanging out. That will be cool. Speaking of Sammot I got an e-mail today informing me that she has an online journal account now too. Except for instead of using livejournal she is using something called ujournal.org Apparently a copy-cat site of livejournal. Using similar code to that of livejournal. Though considerably slower than livejournal it is free with no codes required and gives you all the benefits of livejournal. (Not to plug or anything...)

Hmmm...what else. Oh, I talked to Pam and looks like she is going to be hopefully coming over here tomorrow. She also informed that if I had been staying like another week there would be all kinds of time that she would be coming over here, but I do have to go back to SLO cuz I have a band gig on the 2nd. YAY BAND!!!!!(If we don't keep up our spirits and high energy we would question why we did it)

I also am left today with a lingering desire to finish the Harry Potter series. I finished the third book last night and have been having that craving that I used to get with books, all day long. I wish I had time to read more. Oh well, I'll enjoy this break while I can. Speaking of break I really need to get some work done...yeah right. Maybe one of these free days. :)

Wednesday, December 25, 2002

Merry Christmas

Well I made off like a bandit. I openeed the following list of items this morning.

About 5 pounds of beef Jerky
An extremely large Eagle figurine (I'm not sure why my mom thinks I like eagles, but I know this was expensive so I'm not going to tell her)
A cup for sake (procurred by our Japanese exchange student's mother)
A pair of gloves from American Eagle (?????)
The annual christmas ornament from my grandmother
A puzzle from a japan of a Japanese Temple near Mamkio (our exchange student)'s house
A tool set
A bag of Almonds

and...last but not least...my favorite christmas present of all...the thing that I have waited for since I got to a college
A brand new Sony Clie PEG-SJ20 Handheld Entertainment Organizer. Featuring a backlit screen at a resolution of 320x320, beaming capabilities, and a port for a sony memory stick. I'm in love. Now maybe I can start getting organized. Well I'm going to go and deliver some presents now, Merry Christmas to all and to all a glorious day!!!!

Monday, December 23, 2002

Grrrr...techno troubles

So I had a whole bunch of movies rented and I finally got sometime that I could sit down and watch them. So I sat down and popped one in. Not having looked at the screen I plop down on the couch and put up the foot rest. I turn to start enjoying the movie and what do I see? A picture that looks like a bad attempt at those 3D blue and red comics. Somehow the lights in the projection TV decided to disalign themselves and I have torn the TV as much apart as I can to no avail. The on place that I think the problem is (with the aiming of the mirrors) is one of the places that appears to be unreachable. I have sent an e-mail to the tech support at Toshiba and anxiously await their reply, but I have known support places to take weeks to reply especially to something like this. So I'm not holding my breath. But GRRRRRRR that irks me. We've only had the thing like 5 years, it shouldn't be dying yet. We're probably going to have to pay someone to look at, and fix it. This is not one of my areas of expertise and working on a TV is very dangerous due to the size of the capacitors that TV's use. I could get myself killed or even worse I could damage the TV further. if they could have just made it so that I could access the mirrors everything would have been hunky dory. Oh well.

I got to hang out with a friend of mine by the name of Yukari today. She was staying at a friend of mine's house which is how I met her and now she is back in the states attending college at SOU. It was a lot of fun. AFter that I came back to my dissappointment and stubbornly watched my movie anyway. At least after spending an hour or so trying to fix it on my own.

I've been waiting since she left to talk to her and was finally able to get hold of her. Sounded extremely humurous answering the phone all out of breath and then claiming "wrestling" :) Which I'm 100% sure is exactly what she was probably doing. That type of personality.

Well this aleved my bordem for a little bit. I shall go back and find something else to do. Maybe I shall continue reading that book that I have been going to read for awhile...

Well I'm home

11 weeks of hell at a time. That is the quarter system of college. But then you have the wonderful breaks in between. Those times that you look towards and think, "Well I'll have tons of free time then..."

Yeah right.

This is the first quasi free day that I've had since finals ended which was a week ago last friday. I kept saying to myself that I would write in my journal when I had free time and that there would be lots of updates in the journal over the break because of my abundance of free time. You all know that hasn't been true.
So yeah anyway, back to me. I got to take a wonderful trip over to Klamath Falls the day after I got back into OR last week and spent 2 wonderful days with Pam. Once again reviving what I've told myself on several occasions and coming to the conclusion that a possibilty of the future is nice. Right now it must remain as is, but the unknown future has some very nice prospects. I see it as the scene from my best friend's wedding before julia roberts found out about cameron diaz. Speaking of Pam though, she has changed in many subtle ways. There's the obvious way in that she has color her hair, and it looks really good. But then there's the things about how she is extremely more outgoing and talkative than she had been before, which is I think absolutely wonderful. And she got to meet my friends and she got to meet sammot, it was just a way cool visit.
On a not so good note, I'm once again causing problems like I always manage to do. Pam has a boyfriend named Joey or Roo or something like that, and I feel like I'm that taunting chocolate when you're on a diet that makes you just not care about the diet anymore. Not a good thing I don't think. Even though that is somewhat happy news for me because the whole idea that I was explaining earlier. I'm still not sure that that is a healthy thing for me to be doing.

Talking to someone who can't speak
Listening to someone who can't hear
Claiming stuipdity to hide fear
A wall a shield of nothing
impassable only to communication
Such are the lectures of the heart

So much is happening. I used to worry because I wasn't dating anyone then I starting enjoying single sort of. Now singleness treats me too well. I used to feel like no girl would have me then I started realizing that too many would. My emotions become mixed and confused. I learn to decipher what is long term and what is not, but I have to have a certain distance from everything that is going to on to do that and that makes me feel like it's a game. I don't want to play a game cuz this is not pieces on a chess board, but having to read all the signs and figure out what is real, is too much like a game. I question all the time whether I'll be doign the right thing. And the scariest part of all is that it's really not that far away that I'll be getting married and having kids and starting out on the rest of my life. If I make a wrong decision now...that could ruin everything later. It's what I want, but it's what I fear at the same time. It's hard to explain that what I want in a relationship right now is to have someone that I can take places and call up randomly and do things with. GRAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

So on another note, I got to see a lot of people that I hadn't seen in a really long time now that I'm home and it's been really good. We went out and saw the Two Towers with 13 people and it was a really good movie. Let's see I also got to go to a concert at my old highschool. That was neat too, because I got to sit in the audience, I hadn't done that before. I had always been playing. Ummm I think that's really all fo rnow, mostly because I have been working on this for a while now and think I am running out of thought processes. So see ya.

Thursday, December 12, 2002


Well tomorrow is the last day of the quarter and my last final. Calculus is the bane of my existence, if I never have to take a nother calculus class again it will be too soon. This class has been extremely frustrating in the fact that because I was sick one day and missed a midterm I now need to get 190/200 on the final to get the grade I set out for, before that I needed only like a 50% and I would have had it easily. GRRRRR!!!!!! On a brighter note, I'm 92% hotter than most other guys. click here This is me though Ain't I cute?
Speaking of cute, I have a very strong possibility happening in my life right now. Her name is Mary and boy is she cute. I'm taking my time though, I'm sure that she likes me and that I like her, but right now it's just back and forth flirting which is fun all the same. I've rarely done that before. I'll try and post more later gotta run.