Thursday, July 17, 2003
Part 1: Deja Vu
Well I shouldn't be surprised by now but it happened to me again. I am once again cast out of the blissful world of dating and bodily thrust into the lonely, bleak world of singledom. There were still cushions from the last time I fell, so it wasn't as hard a drop this time, but that doesn't mean that it was easy. On Tues night last week (over a month into the relationship, so I'm improving) Jenn told me that she had a nagging feeling that she was lying to herself. She didn't feel that she wanted me as her boyfriend. Well at least she was honest to herself. I couldn't ask much more than that because dishonesty would end me up like my first relationship. That doesn't stop it from hurting and making me even more wary and distrustful of the dating scene. Slowly. That's the key for the next attempt. Slowly... That's really all I have to say about that on to part 2.