Wednesday, November 17, 2004


Church is one of those subjects I usually like to steer away from. Mostly because I've noticed that whenever people hear that I'm "religious", they either look at me askance and start sidling away slowly, or they try to goad me into a debate over religion, faith, the meaning of life, moral issues, etc. etc. etc.... neither of which I care for much. But most people who know me well know that my faith is very important to me. Not religion, mind you, just faith. I have never defined myself as a "religious" person. But I'm not going to go into that right now. I'm too tired, and at the moment I really don't care to get into that discussion again.

For a long time now I've been feeling like I'm drifting spiritually. It's a feeling that's inside me, and kind of nagging away all the time. I have this deep sense that I want to find a place where I belong, maybe what I've heard some people call a "church family". I have plenty of family already, but it would be nice to have a group of people that I know and see often that understand where I'm coming from, who don't look at me like I'm from another planet if I say the five-letter "F" word. I've tried a lot of churches in the area, and never really felt completely comfortable with any of them. But lately I've been attending the United Methodist church in A-town with Myles. I was surprised at how friendly all the people there were. They have been very welcoming to us. We went the first sunday just out of curiosity, because we were planning on being married there and we wanted to see what the church looked like. But everyone was so nice, we just kept coming back, and now it's been over a month. I'm starting to think that this is going to be the place where we settle down for awhile. I know Myles likes it, and I'm starting to like it too. This church is certainly different than what I'm used to, but not in any bad ways. So we'll see what happens. The only thing I'm worried about is that if I become a member, they're gonna want to baptize me. That's a definite issue with me. I've never been dunked, and I wasn't planning on it anytime soon, for reasons of my own. So we'll see what happens. But so far, so good, right? I'll post more on that some other time, maybe. For now, I'm going to get some sleep. I've got a busy day ahead of me tomorrow.

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