Monday, April 25, 2005

Still Here

Well I still haven't sold anything at work yet, but I have a lot of things that are really close to being a sale and I decided that one month from last monday I will have something in escrow.

The wedding plans appear to be going along smoothly. We are going to be at our next big rush here really soon, when we have to get addresses for the entire guest list. That will be fun.

This past weekend was spent working on the apartment and we have made a pretty big chunk of progress. The plan right now is that Davidyo and myself will head back out there on Saturday to finish finishing the windows, and maybe even put up a wall or two. It's starting to look like we're actually going to get it ready in time.

That's all for now. Peace!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

The barette sits
On the table, surrounded
By things unknown to it.

A reminder of the past.

Things gone

Feelings ended

The dream that is shattered
Like glass, sparkling
In a thousand gleaming peices.

But the barette sparkles
No more. Tarnished
By neglect, it sits unused.

Like the dark place in my soul.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005


I have decided that everything is pointless.

And at the moment I don't give a rat's butt who reads this, because I don't care.

I hate secrets

I hate lies

I just want to go away.

I hate pretending everything is fine.

I don't know how to fix it.

I don't really feel like trying anymore.

So I'm going to go take my sleeping pills now, and see if maybe tonight I can sleep through the night without feeling like I am going to completely lose it.

And if you're actually reading this, go find somewhere else to entertain yourselves- I feel like crap and I'm not the most interesting person right now.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Busy weekend

This weekend went by way too fast. But I got a lot done, let's see-

-Cleaned out my car

-Had the car washed

-Worked on getting some of the junk in my future apartment cleaned out

-Had some personal time (yes, that's something I have to schedule in, and it's occurence is very much worth listing as one of the accomplishments of my weekend.)

-Did major yard work at my future apartment along with Myles

-Fixed 2 broken boards in my horses' pasture fence

-Fixed the broken gate in the same pasture

-Set up a new feeding trough for my mare, so it's easier to feed her grain.

-Cleaned the algae out of both pasture water barrels (yeah I know, it's a lot of horse stuff. What can I say? They're my babies!)

-Oh, and I cleaned the water bucket for the goat, too, because he's cute and he counts.

-Myles and I decided on how we are going to paint our future apartment

-We also agreed on the color scheme and woodwork design

-Picked out pull handles for the cupboards in our future kitchen

-Made an appointment for our first counseling session with our pastor.

Yeah, I think that sums it up for this weekend. Besides that, this week I also managed to decide (along with Myles) on a picture for the invitations that we need to order tomorrow, reserved the hotel room for the first night of our honeymoon (wohoo!), and confirmed that our reservations for the rest of our honeymoon are all finalized. (wohoo!) It's gonna be so great.

So, did I miss anything? I don't know. You'll just all have to wait in breathless anticipation until I manage to actually sit down and blog again. With any luck, it will be some time in the next year or so. ;)

Until then...!